DOSTOEVSKY FEODOR MIHAJLOVICH. THE LIFE WITHOUT HOPE

In the letter to the brother Feodor wrote: ' I have a project: to become the madman … the Brother, sadly to live without hope. I look forward, and the future me is terrified … By me rush in any cold polar atmosphere where the beam solar did not creep; I did not test for a long time inspiration explosions … but often there is in such mood, as shilonsky a prisoner after death of brothers in a dungeon '.

The Personal tragedy was aggravated also with heavy family circumstances: in 1839 Michael Andreevich (under official data, he has died of an apoplectic seizure, and under family legends, has been killed by serfs) has unexpectedly died, and Feodor together with Michael were are taken under guardianship. News about death of the father has so shaken the 18-year-old young man that with it has happened heavy epileptichesky the attack, the first of what will pursue subsequently its all life. (Under other data, the first attack of an epilepsy at Feodor has happened at 7-year-old age.)

The Loneliness, disgust for the future trade and military mushtre have led to that in 1814, a year later after the school termination, Dostoevsky ' on house circumstances ' has left service in Engineering department, having decided to devote itself to the literature, basically to transfers. Some experience at it already was: same year in the press there was Balzac's its translation of the novel ' Evgenie Grande '.

The Life meanwhile developed at Feodor difficult, first of all in the material relation. It is impossible to tell that it has been completely deprived means of subsistence. Together with the state salary and the help of trustees the young man received to 5 thousand bank notes in a year, but in the everyday relation it was the extremely impractical. Money left from it with extreme speed, and almost its expenses were expenditure of the whimsical and whimsical person: he liked to play billiards, in a roulette, and thus almost always lost. The constant lack of money tormented him, but to cope with itself it both did not want, and was not able. After that so Dostoevsky has left service, poverty became the constant companion of his life.